I am an engineering manager who attained a first-class national license in architecture. In the eyes of my friends, my job and salary is enviable.
But who would imagine that 23 years ago I was unemployed and diagnosed with depression? If it wasn’t for Falun Dafa, I would not be alive.
Life Before Practicing Falun Dafa
I grew up in a poor farm family. My parents sent me to school, hoping that going to college would change my fate. I was the best student in the class.
But I didn’t do well when it came to high school placement, and was not accepted into college. My parents were very frustrated, and I seriously thought about committing suicide.
Later, I was accepted by a vocational school, where I was studying computer techniques. After two years, I was offered a seemingly good office job that required computer skills.
I found that the workplace was on the edge of bankruptcy. I had to work as a secretary, and was given a heavy labor job as a manufacturing worker, both part-time. The salary was barely enough for food.
Six months later, the workplace was out of business. I was one of the first batches of unemployed workers in the wave of unemployment in the late 1990s in China.
My parents had borrowed a lot of money for my schooling. Their dream was broken. I felt lost in the city, so I went back home to the countryside.
Not only could I not make money for my family as my parents had hoped, but I also became the target of the villagers’ teasing. I often thought about killing myself, and developed depression.
When I was little, a fortune-teller told my mother that I would have a bright future. We both didn’t understand why the reality was so cruel.
Practicing, Leaving and Returning to Falun Dafa
When I was at the lowest point in my life, my cousin introduced Falun Dafa to me, and told me it is the Buddha Fa. She also gave me a copy of Zhuan Falun, the main book of Falun Dafa.
My grandmother is a sincere Buddhist. I had recited the scriptures and worshiped with her since very little. So, when I heard that it is the Buddha Fa, I was excited.
I joined the local Fa-study group. In the beginning, I didn’t have strong feelings, and I didn’t understand many things in the book.
But, for some unknown reasons, after I started reading the book for a week, my depression was gone. My heart was no longer heavy, but it was filled with a strong feeling of joy. Everything in my life turned around.
I went back to the city after three months, and found an office job. Every morning and night, I went to the local exercise site with my colleagues. My life was rich and happy.
After the persecution of Falun Dafa started in July 1999, I slacked off in cultivation. I got married, and completely gave up on cultivation in 2000.
Since I had a few miscarriages, my husband talked about divorce. I was depressed again. Besides, I experienced liver, spleen and kidney problems.
I thought of Dafa, and how happy I was when I cultivated.
So, I found a fellow practitioner. She gave me many Dafa truth-clarifying materials. Holding the materials, my hands were shaking. The warm feeling extended to my arms. I was very excited.
When I picked up the book Zhuan Falun, I immediately felt the spinning of Falun (law wheel) in my whole body and a strong energy field. The feeling lasted for a week. I was amazed. I found the local exercise site, and relearned all the exercise movements. I also joined the group Fa-study every morning.
I decided to make truth-clarifying materials. Since I didn’t have a computer, I spent a lot of time making a banner that read “Falun Dafa is good; Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good.”
The red words and the gold background were beautiful and eye-catching. I hung it on a tree on a busy street. It stayed there for days, awakening people, and suppressing the evil.
I also made amulets that read “Falun Dafa is good.” I also passed out DVDs and booklets. Every night, I went out to put up truth-clarifying posters.
After a while, a fellow practitioner donated a computer to the local Fa-study group. We learned how to download amulet designs from the Minghui website, and made them.
I was jobless from 2003 to 2004, so all I did every day was study the Fa and clarifying the truth.
Then, I found that I was pregnant after six months. We had a healthy baby. Once again, Master Li (the founder) helped me in a crisis and gave me a happy and harmonious family.
I found an accounting job at a promising company in 2005. From the first day of work, I have followed Master’s teachings:
“Since studying Falun Dafa, these workers have been coming to work early and going home late. They work very diligently and will do any assignment the boss gives. They also no longer compete for personal gain.” (Lecture Six, Zhuan Falun)
I often did the work of two and three people. My performance was praised by eight managers from different departments. There were about 100 employees.
I have successfully convinced 90% of my colleagues to quit the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) and its youth organisations.
We often have new employees. I clarified the truth to each newcomer. Many of them left the company after they quit the Party, and then new people were hired.
Facing a Test
My husband was transferred to a job in a different city in 2006. Six months later, I got a call from a woman. She told me that she had an affair with my husband, and got pregnant.
My husband tried to convince her to have an abortion, because he tried to cover up the affair. So, she called me. I was in shock. But, immediately I recalled Master’s teaching on killing, and the accumulation of karma due to killing.
I know that a life comes to the world under the arrangement of gods. Although I could not accept the fact, I clearly told her that she should keep the baby. I said, “If you don’t want to raise the baby, I will. But you must not have an abortion.”
On the phone, I also clarified the truth to her and asked her to quit the Party. I told her why abortion is wrong, and what the real purpose of being a human is.
My heart was not very calm, and I didn’t thoroughly clarify the truth, but she never called me again. My husband stayed with me, and never had any communication with her again.
A fellow practitioner said that it was my thought of saving the baby that saved my family. I knew that if it wasn’t for Master’s teachings, I would not have been able to consider others at such a disturbing moment.
Always Maintaining Xinxing
I was offered a construction job in 2010, an occupation where I was inexperienced.
From the Fa I learned that every field in human society needs Dafa disciples. So, I started to read books, and learn about this field during my off-hours.
I told all my colleagues that I am a Falun Dafa practitioner, and openly clarified the truth to them. Most of them quit the Party.
My job is in production inspection. Many construction companies often try to bribe the inspectors. But, I maintained my xinxing, and never accepted any bribe.
Even during the new year and other important holidays when our leaders allow us to accept gifts from the construction companies, I still rejected them.
A few times, my manager tried to convince me to accept the gifts. I then took the gifts and asked the manager to give them to my colleagues.
The company leaders trust me. They offered my husband a good job with a high salary. The colleagues and leaders are impressed with my moral standards.
I was arrested in 2018 for practicing Dafa. The company leaders talked to local law enforcement to get me released. After I was released, I had no trouble going back to work.
Facing the attempts of bribes in the construction field, and in the giant dye vat of ordinary human society, only Dafa disciples can maintain their xinxing and not be moved by fame and money.
Witnessing my behavior, my colleagues often say that those corrupt government officials should read Zhuan Falun, when they heard the news that so and so was arrested because of ill-gained money.
With Master Li’s help, I passed the test and got licensed as the national top grade architect in 2017. I was hired by a large company in 2018.
A former jobless worker with no college degree had successfully made a big change in her life.
I know that all of my success was achieved with Master’s help. The immense and profound teachings of the Fa have changed me from the deepest level, turning a selfish, narrow-minded, and depressed person, to a dignified cultivator, who always considers others’ needs before her own.
(Clearwisdom)